About Emir

Emir is 2 year old last 5th dec. Upon being 2 year I notice that there is a step jump in development expecially in his understanding of everything that surrounds him.
I am glad that he's already 2 year, he has quite good table manner that I found not a problem anymore to eat out with my two kids.
He is a jovial kid, always smiling and always finding something to laugh about. He is my pride and will continue to be. He is very expressive, extrovert, like to hug and kiss and be cuddled. Always sitting/lying on me at home while we are watching TV. One thing special about him is he is always smiling, laughing and kidding around. Attached are his b/day party photos at the nursery.

You are two years old....!

Happy birthday Emir ....
We love you so much. Lots of kisses Muahh, Muahh, Muahh!!!
From Mummy, Papa and kakak.

My Best Friend

Sometimes as i drive along the highway or sit quietly by myself , i wonder am I alone in this world? who are my friends? who is my best friend...?
I was thinking who is the one i enjoy spending time with . Thoughts after thoughts and i cannot run away or deny that my true best friend is nobody else but my other half i.e my husband.... don't take me wrong we do fought on little things and criticise on each other (my husband especially likes to show me the "better way to do things" which for me are too ideal, unrealistic, stupid or impractical). But truly he is the one i enjoy spending time with, want to go window shopping with, have coffee with, lazying around with, joke with and have holidays with etc, etc.
and the best thing of all we share our kids, our parents and relatives (even though we don't share the same friends) and whenever i am with them, he is always there sharing the time with me.
when things go wrong for me either at work or whatever that pull my mood down, he is the one who comes home everyday, sit with me, talk or argue with me. He is the one sitting having meals with me or playing with our kids together. I don't say that we agree on everything but because of him, I feel secure enough to go through the life and its obstacles.
He is after all the only person who knows all about my day to day activities or lack of it, see me with my kain batik and t-shirt at home, or praise me when he thinks I am beautiful.
He is the reason I feel good about coming home eveyday.

"My Best Friend"

When everything is wrong
I'll come talk to you
You make things alright when I'm feeling blue
You are such a blessing and I wont be messing
with the one thing that brings light to all my darkness
You're my best friend
and I love you, and I love you
Yes I do

There is no other one who can take your place
I feel happy inside when I see your face
I hope you believe me
'Cause I speak sincerely
and I mean it when I tell you that I need you

You're my best friend
and I love you, and I love you
Yes I do

I'm here right beside you
I will never leave you
and I feel the pain you feel when you start crying

You're my best friend
and I love you, and I love you
Yes I do
You're my best friend
and I love you, and I love you
Yes I do
Yes I do...
Yes I do

Ayah

Ayah
Kau dekat di hati ku
kenangan masa lalu sering bersama diingatan
jasa mu dan kasih sayang mu pada ku tak dapat ku lupa kan

Ayah
walau dikau kini di mamah usia
lemah , sakit dan terlantar
di mata ku bayangan kehebatan mu

sedih dihati ini
masa begitu cepat berlalu
engkau lah ketabahan ku
membesar diriku bersama semangat mu
untuk melihat anak2 mu berjaya

kenangan bersamamu
bukan keriaan di taman atau di disneyland
tapi pada langkah2 yang kau atur di bawah panas mentari
dan pada senyum lebar ketika melihatku
pada keringat didahi mu
kesabaran pada kerenahku
dan kelam kabut mu antara anak2 dan kerja2

kesedihan di hati ini
dimana harus ku campakkan
ketika kenangan datang
dan tika aku merenungmu
tubuhmu yang lemah , kurus dan longlai
mahu kukembalikan masa lalu
tika aku dengar suaramu bergema
melihat mu kelibatmu, merasakan kehadiranmu

maafkan wahai ayah
tak dapat engkau bersama kami
menghayati kebahagiaan
begitu cepat masa melemahkan mu
rasa sesal hatiku tak sudah

Ayah
ampunkan aku atas dosa
kekasaran dan kesalahan
tiada niat melukakan mu
segala yang ku lakukan hanyalah untukmu

Ayah
ampunkan diriku
lambat memenuhi hasratmu untuk melihat
kebahagiaanku
menyebabkan terkilannya hati ini
tak dapat berkongsi dengan mu

Month of celebration

Hari Raya month is almost over. I enjoyed the Raya with Family and kids. Took about 10 days off work that includes the weekend. I feel this is a great break where my kids can spend time with me all the time. I just needed the break too.

Fatini was very picky on her dresses so she got to choose what to wear. she likes the orange colour baju kurung and wanted to wear that in the first raya morning even though I already planned for my whole family to wear red. But we managed to get her to wear the red one later.

My mum was happy with the family gathered together at her home.

To come back to work was a drag but we had celebration at the office to , a dual Raya and Deepavali celebration with special theme at the office. And our floor won the decor competition as well. The last photo shows the show at the office.

Approaching Hari Raya

As per previous Hari Raya, I couldn't stop myself from buying cookies and cakes which actually never get eaten. This year i am buying

kek lapis asam
carrot cake
decorated cupcakes
serunding
tempeyek
5 jars of variety of cookies

...and still looking for more. Actually i am planning to bring home some to my mum's and some to my in-laws. So it's not just for the house.
We are going back to my hometown tonight, hopefully my husband return from outstation (JB) on time tonight. He said we'll start the journey around midnight.

Last night i went to fetch my niece, and bring my kids along. Fatini was so excited thought i am driving back to melaka. After fetching my niece we went home and Fatini refused to enter the house cos she was not expecting to return home. I told her " tomorrow ok, we'll balik kampung tomorrow..." she replied in her stubborn tune, " no mummy I want to go to Tok Wan's tonight". Hmmm, don't like to disappoint her but this going to be another of her tantrum. But she always gave in gracefully. So cute! Therefore finally managed to get her to come inside the house.

I packed half the clothes already last night and after sahur this morning. Trying to make sure i don't leave anything. Still more to do..!!!

Ramadhan almost over

Fasting month is almost over. I missed lots of days fasting due to my miscarriage. It's kind of sad everytime the Ramadan month is almost over, yet the joy is mounting over expecting the Eid celebration, family gathering, the visiting to ralatives houses, receiving people at the house and so on.
My family and I will travel back to Melaka to visit and stay at my mum for a few days before we travel North to Kedah to visit my in-laws.
Fatini and Emir have done their Raya shopping, with lots and lots of new , very nice clothings for them. The dad has been lavishing on the kids especially Fatini. Fatini will start to enjoy the celebration this year while Emir may be too young to fully understand the celebration.
This will be also time for me to spend the whole long week with my children which i look forward to very much. Most time of the year i am always working.
I have bought cookies, cakes and serunding. I have also bought 4 pairs of baju kurung, decided to spend on the attire since i have not bought any baju kurung for the whole year.

Sad news

I lost my baby at 21/2 month pregnancy. I was upset for a while but then i thought if things are not meant to be, they are not meant to be...
I become to appreciate my children more now, alway praying for their health and well being. Both are healthy, active and ever such a joy to me to watch and hold.
I pray they grow up well.

Fatini first days at kindergarten

Fatini first day at the kindergarten on Sep 4 2007. She was quite scared and cried when i left her for the first two days. The third day she did not cry anymore.



On the right is her picture taken a week after.



Now she looks forward to attend the school.
I found that she is so quick at adjusting, so emotionally intelligent and so cute.

Something on friends

Life has its ups and downs. That I know and it always help me to survive daily life. And friends too, who can lend ears to me during boring times and feeling down time.
Most friends i have are those met at work or through other friends. I like making friends and keeping them, even though being busy and all that makes it difficult to maintain contact regularly.
For me , friends especially those that can bond with me are not that easy to come by. And being married with most time committment is towards work and family, makes it even more difficult to see each other. maybe that's why most frineds i make are those from the same work place or from previous work places.
Firends are those i share my feelings, views and opinions. sharing views make problem smaller than they appear initially and also understanding other people different life. And each person has diffierent perpective in life, therefore i enjoy listening to their perspectives, some i accept as solely their own, some i admire.

Family Day Event

Fatini and Emir at the Co sponsored Family day last weekend.

Grandma come visiting

This week my in-laws are at my house. My hubby asked that my kids stay home so that grandma/grandpa don't feel too bored staying at my house. But... my kids are too little to entertain... i thought, and don't think grandma can chase around after Emir. Anyway I decided the kids can stay home Monday and Tuesday. Asked my helper to help with the kids and that means no house-work for her during the day. Anyway, that's the first time i left the kids with the helper and i was so worried that she may be careless and the children are so active and i know it's not easy to look after them. Hope that she will manage. I worry the night before and could hardly slept.
Whatever it is, my kids seem ok staying at home and they are also quite happy with their grandies come visiting. and their smiles when i arrive home just melted my heart. Today I bought them little toys.

Another baby

I have news, my kids will be getting a new baby sister/brother next April. My family are all excited about this. It's too early to plan for anything. I try to get an appointment with my usual gynea but he's away. However I fixed myself an appointment with another one tomorrow. I pray everything will be allright.

School begins soon for Fatini ....

Fatini is already 3 years now and she's so smart already. She can talk well in Malay and English, can write on the books and colour, sing and dance. So after much thinking I registered her with the kindergarten school in the city. It's a private one and quite expensive too which i paid-up during the registration yesterday. There's also a primary school and a secondary school in the same big school compound. I feel so excited for her. She's starting the 1st term this September 4. I hope everything will go allright with her.
I already asked her whether she likes to go to a new school and she said yes she wants to go the new school.
I am preparing myself mentally. I need to reschedule my morning wakeup time to be 30 minute earlier. There goes my extra time sleep. My morning routine will include preparing Fatini for school which I hope will not be too early for her. And i need to plan for the morning journey as well so that I can reach the school on time every morning. My morning task will be to send Fatini first to school, then route and send Emir to the nursery and then be at work hopefully still on time. Well, I'll do this. I'll do it for my babies.

Jewels of my eyes

I transport my chilren everyday to and fro school (the nursery actually which my children refere to as school). They actually travel with me in the early morning when i go to work and in the evening when i pick them up from school on the way back home. The school is just around the corner from my workplace.
Due to the distance from the house to my work place and their school , not to mention the time spent in the traffic, we actually spent an average of 3 hours in the car everyday.
Sometimes the travelling worry me, but i reckon i'll be more worried if they are left at home with the maid.
Attached are their photos in my car. Emir looks happy as always.

Throw the diapers

My firstborn, my daugther, totally stopped using diaper 100% last Sunday. She's 3 years and 3 months old. I' m so happy.... and so thrilled. it's a mile stone! About a few weeks ago, she refused diapers, but I forced it on her during critical times like when in the car, at night and during shopping time at the mall. Then she refused all including during sleeping time. Afraid for the bed wetting, i tried to stay awake until she fall asleep then I would put the diaper on. But starting Sunday i finally gave in to her refusal and wow! she didn't wet the bed. In fact the first night she woke up some time in the early hour of the morning and asked to pee-pee. I immediately woke up and took her to the bathroom. The next night she slept throughout without wetting the bed. Oh Fatini, Mummy love you....